That's rough. Sorry to hear that Jimmy. I get fed up of seeing magazines prattling on about strong women. I offered to write: 'There's nothing wrong with being weak' for one of them - the positive attributes of weakness... because I feel the 'you must be strong' narrative is unhelpful. I don't feel strong very often. But in weakness, you learn your boundaries, and learn ways to get on in life that work for you. Meanwhile, so called 'strong' people can be inconsiderable bombastic assholes sometimes. Or perhaps I'm confusing strength with arrogance, but I suspect you get my general point.