Some of this is like me. But I had an assessment and was told they didn't know if I was autistic - probably just childhood trauma. I stopped playing with toys at 11 because my dad ridiculed me for it. I didn't know spinning wheels was an autistic trait. I did that too. Found wool itchy and hated it, couldn't wear trousers, but I suspect that might be because I had some tight uncomfortable ones which put me off all trousers. I had friends who categorically refused to see me outside of school, or the church youth club. I can see how a diagnosis would explain a lot. I just feel as confused as ever.