Not nice that you were excluded from nice things at work. I'd have felt crap about that too. I'm glad you've explained things with your friends. Reading the story did make me remember the time when I always used to feel excluded from things in a youth group. In some ways, it continued that way through my life. I'm a natural misfit, if you like. I tried really hard to make friends and fit in, before eventually giving up a few years before the pandemic. And it's almost liberating.