My dad was pretty horrible, and when he died, it just was what it was. I wasn't particularly sad. he'd had parkinson's for years, so it had been a long time coming. I didn't cry. Wasn't particularly sad. Just thought it was a shame we'd never had a good relationship. His fault, that. He decided how it would be. Not nice. Might not have been as bad as your experience, but it wasn't good. I wrote this on the day he died. I will take a look at your other story. https://medium.com/illumination/my-dad-died-this-morning-af36244ebf31