I feel rather like this about my own novel. I'd hoped to find a publisher and have it professionally edited and published, but it wasn't to be, so I got feedback, did some edits based on that advice and them published it myself. I then had someone tell me it had too much dialogue - and that was because some of the feedback I'd had was that I should turn all the narrative to dialogue to make it show not tell - this was from a professional writing tutor. Now I feel my original version may have been better. I don't know. But some people loved it. And at the time, I felt the dialogue worked well, so as you can see, I'm torn. So torn about whether it's good enough that I took it down from my Medium page because I was feeling self-conscious about it.

Writing a novel is hard.