Hi Monica, I'm wondering if you know how to check your notifications, because I sent a long response to your second very long message to me and I'd love to know you've received it. I'm trying to help you. Your messages should be showing up on the bell on the desktop version of Medium, but it can be glitchy. Here's my response. https://susiekearley.medium.com/hi-monica-gosh-youve-had-some-horrible-things-happen-in-life-5289299d5a30