Aww, you're not alone. This is so much like me. I have literally given up on my 'best friend' because she never wanted to see me. But on the upside, she didn't present me with a list of why and then sit there and smirk as I read it. That was horrible. Sorry it's been like this. I did try to cultivate an old friendship some years ago, but she wasn't interested. And was really quite rude. So I now accept that it's me, my husband and my guinea pigs and that's all I need. In fact, giving up on other people is a relief. No more expectations. No more disappointments - and since the pandemic, I have no desire to see anyone anyway! My guinea pigs love me. And my husband is a dream. :-)